I am an unlikely careerist. Having done a little of that, here and there, I am all too aware of the futility and illusion of it.
So why do I find myself in a situation where I am expected to be a careerist? It isn't what I want, the expectations wind me up and the whole attitude of displayed by careerists is, bluntly, faintly nauseating.
Not what I want, by any means. Time to temper some expectations, and, perhaps, find something else to do.