As mentioned previously I have adopted the BulletJournal system for keeping myself organised and (relatively) on top of things, both personally and professionally. And it is working. More than a week on and I am finding myself a lot less stressed at home and at work.
I have been accused of having lots of plans and not achieving them. A while ago this stung. A lot. And I changed things because of it.
Today... I'm fine with that. I don't mind entertaining the idea of having a hundred things I want to try or do. I might not do them all, or many of them, but as long as I am doing and achieving some of them then I don't see what the problem is.
A little while ago I created this:
I can 'archer' to that. I can 'config chap' to that. I can add 'Cost Account Manager' to that. I can add... all the things I enjoy and do and am. I don't have a problem with that. I am more than one thing. I always will be.
One of the things that has been fascinating me has been the idea of goal/objective setting. It is that time of the year, when I have to (professionally) set goals for myself, and with their input, for my team.
And, like last year, and the year before that, and the one before that, those goals and and objectives will be somewhat irrelevant by the time half a year has passed. Ditto the majority of those New Year's resolutions too. It is just the way of things. Life changes, things happen, new stuff stirs the mix and spanners the works. Shit happens.
So I have been investigating the idea of not goal setting, the creation of systems or the embodiment of direction over destination. And I am beginning to be a believer. Let me illustrate.
I aim to write a novel. I have failed. I have failed all the way up until I do eventually manage to do that. I want to run 26.2 miles. I have failed until I do it, actually do it. As an aside, part of the reason I fell out of love with running was because I was three days away from running a marathon, with just enough miles under my belt to do it... and I fell ill. I couldn't run. And I felt abject. I still do.
However... if I intend to be more creative... then every little step of that is a win, psychologically. If I do something creative today it is something more than I have done before. The direction I go in isn't necessarily towards the destination I had in mind, but it changes each step from a failure to an achievement. And each achievement makes each step easier and more likely to take place. And each step leads to habit, which leads, eventually, to whichever place you end up. Which isn't the same place you were when you began the whole thing, and may not be the place you dreamed of, but is a place worth visiting. Because of the journey. Just because. And perhaps you never end up there, you just continue journeying, changing direction, doing things, on a whim or otherwise.
This piece of tribute art to Bill Watterson, utilising a speech of his, is still one of the most effective, illustrative and pertinent expressions of 'just doing' there is.
Invent your own labels. Dreams your dreams. Set off for destinations unknown. Invent your own life's meaning.
In a world that continues to demand of us compliance and homogenisation, that forces singular labels and asks of us one dream... it is still allowed to be whatever you will be.